Time to admit my failings and write that I'm moving forward.
Ok, I was self-concious about writing this update because it makes me admit weakness/ failure all over again. Some months ago I just hit a wall with this commission. After some months of work the result was not good. It wasn't finished, and it needed a lot more work. That was also the same time we started what would be the first of 3 moves in 10 months for my husband and I, which left things feeling so unstable and creativity draining instead of inducing creative endeavors. There were other opportunities, or rather distractions. I put the commission on the backburner a lot longer than I wanted to, and the guilt was gnawing away at me.
Well, I've finally started feeling settled again and it was high time to get back at it. I've taken over the whole floor space in our 2nd bedroom, which is more accurately the "project room" to sketch and flesh out a resolution to the background that I was so dissatisfied with. Parts of old background pieces have been cut up to save what I needed, and new background pieces have begun. No more excuses/ fears/ or guilty feelungs... it's high time to move forward.